Mini-Series of diary 2002
December 9, 2002
My Mom was making a ruckus the other night, when I was suicidal. I heard three different noises coming from the kitchen. There was a breeze and part of the City Pages newspaper quivered, but I didn’t feel it. Also, there was an indentation next to me, as if someone was laying next to me.
December 10, 2002
I am taking notes from the book by Gary Zukav.”Heart of the Soul. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder and so am greatly affected by the sun, plus being born in the sun house of my astrological chart. This makes me more susceptible to illness and will lack physical strength. My health has gotten worse, severe fatigue, aches and pains , its been worse since living in Seattle. Also, fear and doubt sucks the energy right out of my body. The chest area and solar plexus carry anger. Someone once told me, my body gets tight because I do not want to hear the truth. I believe abuse is the real reason. I do not understand what the hell I am so afraid of and need a lot of energy healing work.
October 10, 2016
After living in Seattle in the late 90’s, I had a lot of psychosomatic symptoms and it took my body a couple of years to recuperate after I moved . I also was a hypochondriac, which I am not really now. For the most part, Since, then I have mainly lived in warmer, sunny climates.