Mini-Series of diary 2002
January 29, 2003 (CONT)
When I was angry, could sense my body tightening and felt tired. I need to get busy and get a life. I should feel thankful about situations, my souls presents me to learn, but am confused. Tonight, I have been thinking about people being downright cruel to me. An old boyfriend wanted to hit me, a neighbor wanted to harm me and a friend, blamed me for everything. I know like attract like frequencies, but I do not persecute other people. People must sense my weakness.
October 23, 2016
These people who I speak of was a long time ago. The boyfriend just had anger problems and one time he startled me. The neighbor was an alcoholic, who had empty cases of 6 packs of beer stacked about 4 feet high in his place. (LOL) Was a little surprised, he wanted to harm me, think he wasn’t doing well. And an old friend, actually lover, did blame me for everything and no longer friends. I think back then, I was A LOT stronger, and when you are a two-fisted broad, people are constantly challenging you. Nowadays, I am TOO laid back and don’t feel the need to be on the offense. Maybe, I just have matured, but don’t feel everything is worth arguing.
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