Acceptance 2002

Mini-Series of 2002 February 10, 2003(CONT) It is hard to find a doctor to take me seriously. By the time a doctor helps me, I will have to be put into the hospital. The facilitator of the grief counseling group mentioned about having the same problems within a year, of the person who passed away. I …

Positivity 2002

Mini-Series of diary 2002 February 10, 2003 For the first time, in a long time, after attending a Polarity therapy, my left side feels better. He worked with my hips and mentioned my digestive system, not working properly. My colon and memory. He mentioned the fight or flight response, so have been playing the victim …

Minnesota 2002

Mini-Series of diary 2002 January 31, 2003(CONT) One of my friends may have a girlfriend, and I think is going to disappear. One of my other friends, do not hear.  I am forgiving people who should not be forgiven and NO ONE wants me around them.  I am TOO strange to live in Minnesota and …

Seattle has Changed 2002

Mini-Series of diary of 2002 January 29, 2003(CONT) I thought I was finally making friends at my church. Two guys are romantically interested in me, but not interested in either one. At least I am attracting someone, but why can't it be a woman. One guy, I like you if you like it or not, …

Karma 2002

Mini-Series of diary 2002 January 29, 2003 (CONT) When I was angry, could sense my body tightening and felt tired. I need to get busy and get a life. I  should feel thankful about situations, my souls presents me to learn, but am confused. Tonight, I have been thinking about people being downright cruel to …

Meeting 2002

Mini-Series of diary 2002 January 29, 2003 For the last couple of day, have been feeling depressed and low energy. I woke up late, at 11:30 AM, so missed my acupuncture appointment. I dreaded attended a grief support group because had to tell the story of Mom's passing. I got quite emotional. At the meeting …

Southwest 2002

Mini-Series of Diary of 2002 January 27, 2003 (CONT) Something so strange happened to me. I need a job and then out of the blue, to my surprise, I receive a call from a hotel in Santa Fe, NM. I missed out on an opportunity.  I already had things lined up for me for school …

“It is A Shame to Die So Young” 2002

Mini-Series of diary 2002 January 27, 2003 I had an upsetting dream about my Mom. It was a sunny day and she was at a park. She was moving around a picnic table and seem to be in her own world.  At a distance ,  I told her that I missed her and wanted to …

Bequeath 2002

Mini-Series of Diary 2002 January 25, 2003 (CONT) It has been 3 months since my Mom's death and cannot recall the last time I felt her presence in my room. She loves me and came to help me through this hard time. It feels strange not to have her in my life.  She wouldn't have …

God’s Love 2002

Mini-series of diary 2002 January 25, 2003 I attended a past life discussion with Ecknar, a religious group. There were four people presenting the class, and they seemed overly concerned about getting you to come to their church. One woman mention something that I needed to hear. She talked about how one of her friends' …